I Can’t Sleep and I’ve Got a Migraine

UUUgh. I cannot sleep. I took my A.D.D medication yesterday morning and then at noon. I also had a coffee which I didn’t think really did anything to my sleep but here I am at 3 am awake and headachin’ and getting worse.

It’s so hot here. I’ve been overheated all day. I’ve been getting the chills along with being hot and it just doesn’t make sense. I can’t get comfortable and I tossed and turned before I got up. The chills are such an odd sensation when it’s so hot out. I’m sure I don’t have a fever. Just hot…but chilled.

First I took a dose of my anti-anxiety med hoping it would help me sleep and I had some worrying going on in the background. Next I tried a benedryl. I’m still awake but my headache is intensifying. I took a couple excedrine along with a zantac which is par for the course these days. My long history of nsaids has finally caught up with me and gives me lots of stomach pain. Then I also took a zofran because of the migraine. Hoped it would also help put me to sleep.  Still awake. Contemplating smoking a little weed. Maybe it will help.

My migraines are out of control lately. I go in spurts when they seem slightly better but then they ramp up. “Rebounding” they say. Don’t use so much medication. I wonder if these doctors suffer from migraines. I cannot go without treating my migraines. They get worse and worse and it prolongs the pain, nausea, brain fog. I literally cannot take the pain and cave into taking my medication. Those meds that I’ve relied on for years haven’t been working. I live with ice packs. They get me through taking the edge of the pain until my medication (hopefully) kicks in.

::::sigh:::::

I think I’m going to try falling asleep soon. Headache still there, eye pain worsening. now i’m clenching my jaw. I’m really fun, aren’t I!?

Goodnights. Catch ya later, blog.

Living With Migraine

As someone with chronic pain, I worry how my children see me. They’ve grown up with a mother who often has migraines. I still worked for years before  my “crazy” put me on disability. The migraines are still there of course and have continued since I was a child.

I get all the symptoms of migraine. I get blurry vision, nausea, often I cannot speak while at the peak of the headache. After the migraine, if my medication helped with the head pain, I’m still left with those lingering postdrome symptoms like lethargy, dizziness, nausea, difficulty concentrating….that kind of thing.

My migraines are chronic meaning I have WELL over 15 migraines a month. I probably have one 5-6 days a week. Medication helps some but you just can’t take something with every migraine. And my medication used to help more but lately it’s not doing the trick.

In retrospect, I think this disease has given my children compassion. They get an occasional migraine themselves so they know what I deal with. Thank God they aren’t chronic for them, though.

They are helpful when I’ve got a really bad one. They’ve gone to the pharmacy for me, bring me ice when I need it, have gotten cold washcloths for me, gone to find me a fountain coke which helps settle my stomach. They don’t dote on me but when I need some help they are right there and aren’t judging me for not getting off the couch to clean the kitchen!

I guess even a migraine can be a blessing. Someday when they have their own families, I know they will be empathetic, kind souls who will be there with a sympathetic heart.

Lemons outta lemonaid. Crazy, right?